Laying in the sea of leaves
I gaze at the painted sky
Wondering what God has planned for me
asking myself "why?"
Thinking of all the bad things
That was once done and said
All the harsh feelings coming back,
rushing through my head.
My God has something better for me
planned for when i die
So why can't he just take me,
end it where i lie?
There must be a reason
That im still here today
but what those reasons are,
I can not say.
I don't want to live another night
with my brother the way he acts
Family is supposed to love and care,
things he clearly lacks.
I'd rather be with you God,
So just take me away
I have been waiting patiently
But i can not wait for the day
The day that i won't hurt any longer
or feel that i'm worthless
I wonder why my brother
is this ball of angry mess.
Well now the sky is dark,
and im still here.
please just get it over with,
End my dreading fear.
I guess It's not my time,
so back to my home I'll go
I'll hold everything back,
and try not to let my feelings show.
Hopefully he wont visit me tonight,
and hurt me until i scream
Hopefully I'll wake up with you God,
As if it were all just a bad dream.
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